two peas in a pod
sidenote: i finally! finished revamping! kind of. i at the very least got the bare bones done and over with... pray for me
another ramble... i need to stop worrying about how sophisticated i sound in these. i just happen to start sounding that way when i let my thoughts run endlessly
one of the things that connects us so deeply is each other's understanding of the other at an emotional level.
we are quite the opposite of each other in personality. aki is cool, calm and serious. i'm pretty vibrant, and, as described by others, warm. i think that is true and only leads us to the big wonderful trope of opposites attract. it's no wonder why we're sun and moon anyway
pain is familiar to me. to us, especially. i think what connects us emotionally is how we handle our emotions.. we both see our vulnerability as weakness and it usually leads us to walls and facades and things that just aren't true. i think it's clear how each of us display that, though....
aki's pain hurts me so much. my own pain hurts too. dealing with our emotions alone is already difficult. admittedly, it is troubling to have to worry for another's emotions, especially when they're in the same exact boat with the same exact thinking process... perseverance and continuing to choose us is what pushes us past this, i think. alongside numerous nights of communication and a couple (a lot) of crying.
vulnerability is so gentle.. and painful. fingers wrapping gingerly around my heart with the promise of soft mornings and the quiet countryside. my heart aches in his palm. the gentle murmur of his voice does nothing but pull me deeper, letting the pain crawl into my throat until i can't help but cry. it's a soothing balm: proof of hope realized, maybe?
there's a kiss on my forehead, my cheek, then against the most sacred whisper of his name. his hands find mine and everything just feels warm. this is all so unfamiliar. it's everything i could ever want